What if it all was a lie?

Imagine if all that we were taught was a lie? That's what I wonder almost every odd day. Sometimes I worry that maybe this religion that I believe in is not real.

What if we all die right now, or sooner than we expected. Would we really be prepared for what's on the other side? I'm not sure if I'm ready to face an eternity of being an entity...to be a faceless creature in Heaven for ever and ever and ever. Would I really be ready to face God on judgment day? Would I really be prepared to answer all of his questions, knowing that he has been watching my every move all this time? The thing is, he knows what goes on in my mind and no matter how big of a clean image I put up, he still knows my deepest thoughts. I may smile at a person and be outwardly friendly, but what's to stop me of thinking ill of them?

I received some bad news recently. Another close friend of mine has...cancer. It's really quite disheartening. As soon as they told me, my heart dropped and the world seemed to spin on its own axis. I told my mum and had a right old cry about it. I even went as far as to blame God for all this. I mean, why the hell would he do this to me again?! I felt sorry for my friend, for myself and most of all: angry at God. I mean, does He enjoy making us suffer? Does he get his kicks out of it?! 

Needless to say, I haven't picked up a Bible ever since. 

All I'm saying is, imagine if all those crazy Scientologists and Atheists were right? I mean, people created religion in order to explain the unexplainable. People feel the need to rely on some higher entity in order to answer te questions that they don't understand.

I wonder if the world would be a safer place without religion.

   - "Now I'm a walking contradiction"

Serenity

Quiet.
Silence.
Peace.
Zen.
Relaxed.

I have never felt so relaxed before. I have never been so at peace.

Floating.
In mid-air.
Surrounded by the clouds.

I dream of you at times. Sometimes. A little. More often than I used to before. Your very being completes my existence.

Your walk.
Your talk.
The way you brush your hair out of your face.

I dream too. Sometimes of you. Mostly of you.

Your skin like a soft sheet of brown.
Your eyes a dark shade of chocolate. Warm. Gentle. Loving, yet harsh.

The way you look at me. I wish I could change the way you look at me. Your gorgeous eyes see through me like I'm a flimsy piece of tracing paper.

Tracing paper. Tracing hands. Your hands across my skin; tracing.

Paper thin like the very fabric of my existence. Stretched out waiting to be penetrated by the thoughts of your fancy. Waiting to be engulfed by the very fury of this love.

Engulfed. Gulf of Mexico. Deep sea diving into the abyss from which we came from.

Is it wrong that these words make up a strange song?

Is it wrong that I haven't cried about you for very long?

Sitting in my room, back against the wall,

It's no wonder that I haven't gone berserk and fucked the whole world up!

Slightly insane, mental images, clouding up my brain

Things like burning ashes into dust, then burying them

Unbeknownst to him, unbeknownst to me 

We're all stranded in a giant snow globe!

Insane. 

Society entails that we change our humanity to a life that is filled with less profanity

seeking wisdom from a ruler whose words are filled with vanity

crushing M & M's in a house whilst stealing jewelry. 

Crazy kids will never be ignored, they love the attention,

his throat was so full of words that he forgot to mention 

how his sister swallowed a sum enough to kill her, making out that the drug, not her, was the villain. 

Faith is a dying art, everybody killed it, out in the church they are praying for their sins and forgiveness, 

when they are quick to judge yet they themselves are the guilty. Words not to be trusted coming from the jury. We can't be judge, jury and executioner. 

It's about time that they listened to the Good Word

I'm not talking about myself, I'm talking about the Book

Turn the page to Revelations and take a look. 

                      -"Allahu Akbar"

Fluffy and Fooly Cooly

Feeling depressed.

Devoid of all happiness.

I'm absolutely melancholic.

Fooly Cooly is the best.

I have never really been more confused yet happy at the same time. Ever since I finished this anime, I have felt a little bit more empty inside. I feel as if my life has no meaning anymore. Naota and his crazy antics with Mamimi and Haruka-san have seemed to have an effect on me.

Is it normal that after watching one episode of FLCL I feel completely melancholic? Is it possible to feel melancholic? Sometimes when I feel melancholic, I listen to really sad music that makes me think about sitting in a tall tree with the boy of my dreams while we cut ourselves with razors and watch the blood drip down our wrists. 

Is it strange that I want to date someone as equally depressed as me? Yet I want to date someone who can cheer me up at the same time and will be the butter to my bread? Yeah, I sometimes don't know what I want. I could go for hours staring at the wall and feeling sad and sorry about myself. Then I tell myself to get over it then I realize that no one would ever want me so I decide to vent my frustrations in blog posts that I have yet to post.

 I also feel as if people don't really notice me most of the time. Sometimes I lie to myself and tell people that I'm actually quite happy with where I am in life. I know I should give back to the community and everything, even at the expense of my own happiness. I'm only human yet I live a privileged lifestyle compared to other people.

I want to meet a nice little Somali boy or a pretty Ethiopain girl and just talk to them. I want to know all about their lives and if they really live normal lives. I want to know all about the war and how it affects them. I want to ask them how it's like to be Muslim/Ethiopian Orthodox and what their daily routine entails. 

I've always been curious about people who cut themselves. Why do they do that? I tried once but my arm got all itchy and I never did it deep enough to leave any scars. Hmm...I should write an embellished blog post about that.

Melancholy and Fooly-Cooly

That's just how I feel

If words could describe who I want

Then I would describe you

I'm not that good at poetry

But you're tall and sturdy like a tree

And you can play baseball with me

And we can live life happily

I hope that you know that I care

And you are cuddly like a bear

And now my heart has gone unruly

So let's go home home and Fooly Cooly

                        ;)

Drake: So Far, So Gone

Yes, it's that time of the year again; the time when we prepare ourselves for another Drake album. Yes people, on the 24th of September 2013, Drake is releasing his highly anticipated album: Nothing Was The Same. And indeed, nothing is the same.

When Drake first hit the scene, fresh off his acting stint on Degrassi and a shit-load of other acting gigs, Drake had to think of a new career change. The rap game has mainly been dominated by African American men and a few women, with the exception of Eminem. Drake, in my eyes, was the first ever mixed-race, Jewish Canadian man who took over the rap game. He hit the scene with his mix tapes and smash hits, 'Successful' and 'Best I Ever Had.' The latter of which became a basketball anthem and an ode to all females out there who didn't think men could appreciate them in a rap song. 

Drake has become famous for being able to rap about real G-shit while panning out to croon some soft melodies for the ladies. He is one of the few rappers to actually achieve this amazing feat. When he first broke onto the scene, Drake won over fans for his slick rhymes and, for the ladies, his good looks and overall charm. He was soon signed to Young Money by Lil' Wayne he saw potential in him. Another young artist was also signed around that time, but her story is for another time. His fame was on the rise when he won a Grammy last year for his album 'Take Care' which won best rap album. Personally, I think it was more of an RnB album but obviously those people up at Grammy headquarters haven't been clued up on genre specifications. 

 

Anyway, I've noticed lately that people are starting to hate on him. Could it be that lately his music hasn't been up to par from his 'So Far, So Gone' days? Could it be the fact that he has now taken to singing with autotune more than actually rapping on songs? Could it be that he is just a sensitive bitch that constantly cries over a breakup, which has sprouted thousands of Internet memes? Or could it be that he's getting more ass than all of you hatin'-ass niggas? Just saying.

Drake is what many would call, 'a powerhouse.' He can rap, 'sing' sort of and has a record label or fashion label tucked away under those black wifebeaters. It's true that maybe 'Started From the Bottom' was not the best song in the world, and before you know it, every nigga in the hood is blasting it from their bashed up hunchback in front of a rundown convenience store.

As for Drake's 'alleged' sensitive bullshit, it's safe to say that he is simply expressing himself; if not in a girly way that makes you just want to punch him in the throat. His lyrics speak to both men who have recently gone through a rough break up to...well only them then.

So to all of you people hating on Drake because you believe that he has 'sold-out', I'm pretty sure that you will all say the same about Kendrick when he reaches the status of Drake. Although I feel as if K.dot has surpassed all these other rap dogs. Just saying.

    -"I'm just saying you could do better"

Justin Bieber: The Winding Road Ahead

Now you all may remember dear Justin Bieber; a young, fresh YouTube singer who's fame was set to rise when he was signed by Usher. His fan base soon grew from a few meager randoms on YouTube to a booming crop of screaming teenage girls. He soon started producing hit after hit and sure enough, this young star's future looked bright. Or did it?

In recent days, Justin's private life seems to be shrouded with controversy. From his excessive thirst for tattooes, to his introduction to clubs and substance abuse. Many fans refuse to admit that perhaps Justin has picked up a few new habits. Many attribute his new 'bad-boy' persona to the new members to his crew. I will admit, that his behavior of late leads me to believe that he is being influenced by 'black rap culture', if that's a real term.

Gone are the days when we viewed Justin as a fresh- faced young boy with stars in his eyes. Now, many girls (older women included) view him as a 'bubbling sexpot that they desire to throw them on the coffee table and proceed to Fornicate without hesitation or pause.' Believe me, I don't make this stuff up. I remember his first acceptance speech which was some eons ago; he thanked God and Jesus and stated that he is truly blessed with this talent. I'm not here to preach that he has lost his religion, heck, I'm not necessarily a beacon of absolute adherence but at least I know right from wrong. 

Teenagers all around the world experiment with substances all the time, but just because Justin is in the spotlight, all of his daily actions are placed under the spotlight. Whether he's seen leaving church (which I haven't seen him do) or leaving a nightclub (which I have seen quite often lately), Justin's actions are constantly being scrutinized by the critical public. Personally, I feel as if many parents are turning a blind eye to what is clearly happening before them. They all choose to scrutinize and bash stars like Miley Cyrus and carry on driving their daughters to Justin Bieber concerts monthly. Not to say that there's anything wrong with Justin but he is slowly going down a dark path.

The seductive allure of drugs, alcohol and loose women is very attractive to young boys. Just as Miley, Justin may also want to transition into the adult market sooner rather than later. In his recent concerts, Justin has taken to stripping to appease the masses of horny teenage girls who will undoubtedly go home and finger themselves to that video. Too much? Too bad. 

Anyway, I have observed in many of his recent concert videos that he's prone to stripping and dancing more than singing. I don't know about you guys, but I wouldn't pay the equivalent to the price of an expensive handbag to watch a slightly underdeveloped young boy strutting whatever muscle he has across the stage. I'd rather buy video games.

Justin's body has also changed. Of course we have all noticed his multitude of fresh ink sprawled across his body. The tattoos are mostly on his left arm and last time I checked he had a tattoo of Jesus praying on his calf. Personally, I also aspire to have a few tattoos when I'm older and have the balls to do it, but I really don't understand it when people get a gang-load of tatts. Imagine how attractive those things are going to look when you're pushing 80 in an old-age home, dragging around bags of skin. Attractive, huh?

In conclusion, I would like to make my case to the public: we should not be so quick to judge. There's a mass going around of double standards here. I'm not really fond of Miley or Bieber, but I do believe that people are focusing more on Miley's behavior rather than Justin's. Look: Justin is getting into fights in nightclubs. Justin is 'entertaining' various women, allegedly to make Selena Gomez jealous. Justin is getting a gang-load of tattoos that he will probably regret when he's older. But then again, so will Lil' Wayne. Justin is wearing ski masks out in public in order to get attention. He is displaying all sorts of erratic behavior; from spitting at fans and neighbors, to peeing in a mob bucket and yelling, "Fuck Bill Clinton!" 

Justin. Needs. Help.

So I make an appeal to his management team, who see to be ignoring the warning signs. People predict he may become the next Vanilla Ice and fade into obscurity, or the next Lindsay Lohan and struggle with addiction. I'm going to go all religious and shit on all of you and suggest that :

Don't we all miss that humble, talented white boy from Canada? (sit down Drake, we don't mean you)

   - "I believe the children are the future"

Review: Wrecking Ball - Miley Cyris (music video)

by Mzwandile Poncana

Recently I saw a quote on Twitter.com which said this - 'Favorite American Pass-time: Mocking young female celebrities.'

I didn't really need a lot of thinking to work out who exactly they were referring to. It was generalized of course - over the years different female celebrities have had their share of cruel mockery - by in this specific time, after the world infamous VMA performance, it was obvious that the quote was a clear reference to the extravagant Miley Cyrus. Her VMA performance - consisting of the summer hit single 'We Can't Stop' and a duet of 'Blurred Lines' with Robin Thicke - made everyone freeze their interests of any other trend on Twitter, and dedicate an amount of energy to report how 'tragic' the performance was. The specific VMA show ultimately became one of the most tweeted events in 2012, simply due to Ms. Cyrus' 'tragic' performance. The world was ablaze with different methods of down casting every inch of the poor 20-year-old, fires of journalists clanked at their computers, swarms of reporters posted pictures upon pictures. On Facebook, memes were created and posted with every passing millisecond. On Twitter, every minute a total if 150 tweeters digitally roared of how shameful she and her fame was. Everywhere one turned, three words all associated together came out despicably: 'Miley Cyrus', 'Inappropriate' and 'twerking'. One could not run from the hatred expressed by almost everyone with Internet access, it was exhausting.

Whether I agree or not with this amazing outbreak of prejudice from society- which I do not-is based on Miley's intention in her performance. When planning, every artist aspires to create a product which either : reflects a strong meaning for a generalized audience -or- reflects themselves and their own personalized personality. Miley obviously had a professional idea on how she wished to express how exhausted she was with the person she had previously been. In this case, the previous 'innocent' 'lady-like' Miley Cyrus was what Miley must of thought was 'crafted by her managers'. She was living behind the façade of how people wanted her to behave. How people expected a girl of her age was to behave. And anything else that was not associated with teenage Disney innocence is way too much of a disastrous taboo. However, judging by this sudden change in Music,Style and Performance, we can see how uncomfortable Miley was, living behind the façade of an innocent Past-Disney actress who had to behave like one. And I say, for the sake of it, she had every fucking right to change. She felt since she had built herself a platform in the industry of general fame, she could use tactics that relate to what teenagers find 'modern' as a shining weapon to only reach a higher level of respect from them. And that's what she wished to create, and nobody should judge her on reacting appropriately in a professional sense to Society's recent interests. She saw what the world found entertaining and realized, it was everything she wished to be. Not hiding behind the overpowering little shadow of her Past-Disney Princess lie.

That being said, I move onto my impression of the 'Wrecking Ball' music video. When I finished watching it, I knew straight away how malicious the comments towards it were obviously going to be; rude expressions of rude misinterpretations. 'Nudity is inappropriate  'What has gone wrong with her' 'blah blah blah blah I'm better than this bitch because sitting behind a computer and being fabulously hilarious for subjective appreciation from objective people i don't know is way better than her working her ass off to get billions upon fucking billions'. It's all the same attention-seeking story every social network you go to. The offense people feel is written on every single Twitter timeline, Facebook timeline and Journalism tabloid. Of course, this offense and rage from her past performance would blind them into automatically viewing the video with a negative approach, subconsciously already telling themselves that it's going to be terrible. (Last performance was awful, this must be awful as well tehehe good evening folks welcome aboard the society train of logic that will take you as far as we decide you to go toot toot all aboard) and with all due respect (and by that I mean no respect at all), you people are burying yourselves in your own trash. Society has always done it and will continue on doing it. Missing yourselves out on some real good music simply because of ONE distasteful performance. And you will continue to nit-pick every fucking thing that you see, hear or feel is wrong. Every small little thing. In this music video, Miley is clearly expressing the product of her plans towards changing her future into something she is comfortable existing in, changing the way she expresses herself towards the world into a way that will be comfortable for her to express. And as for these small nitpicks such as nudity, I would absolutely love to see  how many tweets per minute Rihanna got about her 'Stay' video... Or how many ANY OTHER artist who has been nude in a video got. Nudity in music videos displayed anywhere in public by any other artist have never been a real dilemma or drastic situation. I know this, Miley knows this. But the sad thing is, society knows it as well. The same vital society that insist its completely inappropriate to be naked on TV. I say, it is an invisible subjective rule for General society to have at least one shamed-down celebrity to mock at in boring situations. The Internet may be the future, but a society that uses it for the purposes of positivity it was initially created for, is not. Miley is doing the right thing by existing in the life she chooses to exist in. I found the song absolutely breath taking and the way she interpreted the audio into video was even the more brilliant. She used colorful cinematography and pop culture arts and craft to bring the song to life. I personally am not a fan of pop usually, but this (with 'Applause' by Lady Gaga) has to be the exception. There was nothing wrong with Cyrus's video and my one wish is for everybody to leave her the fuck alone.

Wrecking Ball review (sort of)

Well I suppose it's time to address the elephant in the room. Miley Cyrus recently released a new music video to accompany her latest single, 'Wrecking Ball' from her upcoming album, 'Bangerz.' Quite frankly I didn't want to bother myself with listening to the song but I did notice the topic trending on my Twitter feed so, yeah. But I did anyway.

Firstly, I am appalled at Miley's behavior of late. She has been tweaking up a storm in recent weeks and parents are up in arms. Unfortunately, Miley is just another example of a young, fresh Disney starlet struggling to break into the mature part if the industry. For the past 3 years, every movie that she has touched has been met with negative reviews, leaving many wondering if the Disney machine really taught her anything.

Miley has been through a lot though; ranging from her parents' messy divorce to a now rocky relationship with Liam Hemsworth. Many think that Miley may just be acting out like many teenagers do, but he is well past 18 and should act a little bit more maturely. Her recent scantily clad romps onstage are just her attempts to cut a new image for herself; a good girl gone bad. 

Back to the music video, I'm not a huge fan of Miley Cyrus' recent music but I actually quite like this song. The case is very similar to the 'We Can't Stop' situation: everyone loves the song but the music video was a huge disappointment! In regards to the video, it was fine up until she started licking a sledgehammer -_-. The obvious signs of Miley's new image were apparent when she pranced around in just a tank top and panties, bra-less. I'm not going to start a whole 'Let's-hate-on-Miley' fest but it would be nice is he could throw on a few clothes every now and again. Just saying.

There was clear outrage in the Twitter-verse over the music video's content. Clearly humping a cold steel wrecking ball in nothing but your birthday suit is not popular with most people. Weirdos...

              - "Banger$$"

Pop Culture Week

Well, starting tomorrow, our theme for the week is pop culture. Basically I will be commenting on recent events in the world of celebrity and all that, meaning I will have to keep a pulse on my Twitter feed. The topics I will cover might include:

• Miley Cyrus's VMA performance

• Celebrity fashion

• Nicki Minaj (in all her glory)

• Social Networks

• Celebrity feuds e.g. Kendrick Lamar vs. Drake

• Music news and recommendations 

And anything else related to all those lovely celebrities we love to hate. Keep in mind that I might not cover every topic listed here but I will do my best to cover the juiciest ones with the most interest in them. I will do my best to post a medium to long post daily for the next 5 to 7 days. 

Watch this space.

(Photo credits: WeHeartIt.com)

              - "Ndihamba nawe"  

UPDATE : September 2013

Basically this is just a little update on the reason why my posts are coming in a little late. I am very busy and very lazy, coupled with the fact that sometimes I have no idea what to post about. I think I might just post chapters from the stories that I'm writing but I worry that if one day I manage to get published then they might reject it because it has already new viewed by the public. 

Anyway, expect chapter posts from a book I'm sorting. 

Don't expect frequent posts, like weekly and all that shit cos quite frankly I just might not feel like it.

Expect me to try and write a few more positive posts and reviews on stuff. I'm trying to be a little more relevant and up-to-date. 

Thank you :)

Bus going to Nowhere

I'm on a bus going to Nowhere

16 hours have taken their toll on my eyes

I bought my ticket, and I'm heading out to Nowhere

A place where all of my emotions can come out tonight

Oohh, I got this feeling and I just can't let it go

That you must hate me so, cos you're always just so cold

You're so cold...

I'm on a bus and it's heading to Nowhere

Somewhere where my demons. Can't find me.

Bought my ticket last night, and it's titled 'Somewhere'

Gotta remember to sue that company tonight 

Oohh, but I'm feeling blue

Because you're not here to love me anymore

Oohh, this feeling is new-ooh

Cos you're not here to beat me anymore-oh

I've got my ticket to Nowhere

Right now I'm just a wandering soul

They punch the holes in my ticket

And from here I know that it's time to go

So I look back on my life and it's almost like some night stand;

The kind where friendships are broken by the dealings of a drunken binge.

Oh-oh-ooohhhh!

I'm feeling this way because the night seems to hide my emotions.

I start to cry from the pain that was caused by heavy devotions.

I wrote this all the bus because I just can't shut the hell up. 

This dark feelings inside have intertwined and choked my insides.

Oooh, I had a dream that you stabbed me in the back

Because the love I had for you was the only love that I ever had!

*guitar solo*

NO! NO! NOOOOOOO!

Ooh, I have this stabbing sensation

I feel like I'm about to die!

I had a hole in my heart from all this shit that I had locked up inside!

It's a war zone in here, and all my soldiers have curled up and died!

They're in a fetal position and my trenches have been abandoned.

And I'm only feeling this way 'cos I feel as if I should surrender. 

So while I suffer in silence, this bus is still on it's course.

So I'm a bus out...to Nowhere

And of course....I'm alone.

                    

               -  "Carpa Diem"

Reasons Why I Love Being A Gamer

Ah video games. They have been around practically since the dawn of time. In fact, there is a huge debate over what should be considered as the first video game. 

Many conservative parents believe that video games promote a sense of violence and gun culture within children and teens. Ever since all the shootings in America over the years, many theorists have blamed the rise in shootings to the popularity of shooter video games, such as GTA. Personally, as a gamer I do not agree at all with these accusations! There are actually many benefits to playing video games regularly.

1. Video games are therapeutic for kids with chronic illnesses.

It improves their cognitive and motor skills. Also, it's quite therapeutic for the kids with issues and emotions that they just want to rage about. They can let loose of all their issues through mindless entertainment, or thought-provoking deep puzzles. 

2. Video games improve preschoolers motor skills. 

I don't know about you guys, but my parents were very shocked when I started using the computer at age 3. Apparently they had to reconfigure the computer in order to accommodate my early left-handedness.

3. Video games reduce stress and depression.

Well I obviously don't play games often enough because I play video games and I still get depressed. Hmm...maybe that's just me. Anyway, the joy of beating the ultimate high score or getting a really high kill streak on Call Of Duty would definitely lift anyone's spirits. 

4. Video games provide pain relief.

Well apparently, they did this research project in a hospital where patients played a game called 'Snow World.' The game distracted them from their immense physical pain. They also found that soldiers who played this game in military hospitals required less pain mess during recovery.

5. Video games can improve your eyesight.

Listen up all you cataracts sufferers: playing FPS can improve your vision! These games require you to pay extra attention to your surroundings so this cause you to look at things more sharply.

6. Video games improve your decision-making skills.

This hasn't really sunk in with me because I'm the type of gamer who likes to think things through thoroughly. I like take things slow, you know. Most video games need you to make quick decisions and require fast reactions that could be life or death situations. Virtual ones that is. 

7. Video games keep you happy in old age.

When I'm old and grey and 68, I would want to spend my retirement kicking back in the Bahamas playing The Sims. A study found that senior citizens who played video games were more likely to have 'higher levels of happiness' than those who don't. 

8. Gamers do better in jobs that are active.

Apparently surgeons and militants perform better if they regularly play video games.

9. Gamers are better at jobs that are intellectual.

I doubt that I apply to this but it would be nice if it were true. Gamers are constantly researching and developing new strategies to be the best at their game. This prepares them for jobs that require a large amount of researching, analyzing and the like.

10. Gamers are happier over the long run.

I agree with this fully. Apparently the benefits of spending a lot of time playing games are equivalent to the benefits of spending a lot of time in church.

         - "We can't stop. We won't stop"

 

Food for thought

I am currently writing this at 11.08 pm Central African time. I basically have a few thoughts I'd like to express.

It seems that nowadays, many of us have come into wealth, either by choice or by luck. We chose to show off this wealth through worldly possessions that can be flaunted in front of the poorer folk. Now I'm not too sure about you guys, but as a Christian, I have been taught to not become too attached to my possessions here on Earth, as one day we will all be called to Judgement and sent to Heaven...or Hell. As is the case, our time here on Earth is short, and we have to be prepared to leave behind all of our possessions. However, no matter how many of us good folk repeat this little thought to ourselves, it simply never comes through in practice. We see ourselves growing more and more dependent on our luxuries and mistake them for necessities. We are going more and more against the very words that we have been taught and misinterpret our teachings.

Now I'm not the most religious person on Earth, and I'm not too sure if any of you out there feel the same way; but I just felt I needed to point out what I see is growing more apparent in this world. I am also the first to admit that I practically cried when I lost my iPod so obviously this rule applies to myself as well. 

Basically, we as humans are living hypocrites. Perhaps because if the fact that I am pouring out a Biblical teaching in this context then I am saying that we as Christians are hypocrites. There's a ton of other stuff that we are hypocritical about but that's for another post, another day. All I'm saying is, is that maybe we should take a step back and ask ourselves, "Are we really staying true to our teachings? Do I understand that the world is going to end and I shouldn't get too comfortable?"

However, that's not to say that you should go out and sell all your clothes and shit just cos the world is ending. Hmm, where have we heard that story before....

I dunno. You be the judge of this rather eclectic post.

           -      "Namaste."

You Still Love Her

As we lay here, my love, fingers intertwined. As you sing to me about the future of our lives. As you whisper sweet nothings into my ear, telling me things that I want to hear. You always know what to say, don't you?

I swear that we've been down this road before; that's a bit cliche isn't it? You mess up, I yell at you, we cry and then you call me the next day; claiming that you love me. I take you back. It's the same old story. Day in and day out. I'm tired of it all!

I'm tired of staining my pillow with my tears and mascara. I'm tired of waiting desperately for your phone calls and texts. I'm tired of waiting for you at the lockers, looking like a damn fool! They all laugh at me, I can hear them whispering in the background. I take pills to kill the noise; drown out their venomous words. They're all just jealous I say. Well, that's what I used to say.

I'm tired of defending you all the time. Making excuses to my friends about your whereabouts when I know that you're with her!

I've seen the way you look at her lately. You used to tell me that she didn't mean anything to you, that you two were over. But I knew all along, or maybe I'm just rambling again...

You hardly have any passion any more. You're lifeless and unenthusiastic whenever we are together. You don't surprise me anymore and I haven't heard you tell me that you love me lately. All your feelings have been transferred to her. What does she have that I don't?!

Sure she may have curves that are hard to navigate. She's got legs that stretch for miles and eyes that could bore a hole through your soul. She is tall and curvaceous and her smell attracts all the other men to her. She's flawless. She's perfect in your eyes.

But I can see the truth. She leases to your destruction. She's nothing but trouble yet you still return to her every night. She lies in your arms very night, you soak up her taste and it leaves a bitter ash on your lips.

She's your addiction, and you still love her more than you love me.

Sans Boyfriend

Nowadays it seems like everyone has somebody that they are madly in love with and dating. They have someone who will hold their hand as they walk in the street, cuddle them while they watch a movie, kiss them on the cheek and send them cute text messages in the morning saying, "Morning beautiful. :)" They all have someone special that makes them smile and will deal with all their crap. They have someone who'll do cute things to them like hug them from behind and lend them hoodies when they're cold. Honestly, I can't see myself ever being in that sort of relationship.

Personally, I don't ever truly believe that I could be the object of someone's affection. I can't imagine any guy texting me in the morning to say hello. Quite frankly, if anyone ever did that to me I would beat the hell out of them! I mean, what gives him the right to wake me from my sleep and have me face the world?! Naahhhh....

I also can't understand the whole, 'Oh-baby-you-look-cold-,-here-have-my-sweater.' Personally, if some chick asked me for my sweater I'd be all like, "Bitch what you playin' at?! Sh** you tryin' to be cute or sumthin' askin' for my sweater and sh**. Sh**, you tryin' to make a brotha freeze up in here?!"

On the note of cuddling, I wouldn't mind having someone cuddle me but it probably wouldn't work out. I'd probably fart or something or my hair would get in his mouth and he would probably be a tall guy who wouldn't fit on the couch. I'd make a mess of things, I just know it!

On the issue of me being the 'perfect, cute, innocent girlfriend who is only bad for her boyfriend', I am definitely the most awkward and uncute thing on this planet. I'm not even f***ing with you right now, I REALLY am! If a guy were to flirt with me, then I'd probably look at all weird and say something really stupid and walk away embarrassed. I suck at hugging, I don't know where to put my arms when the approach or how tightly I should hold on. -_-

Basically, to any guy out there who's thinking of asking me, I would advise you to be prepared for the worst. I would probably be super clingy and jealous of ANY and EVERY girl that you talk to. I would really get annoyed if you texted me in the morning I would probably snap at you and be cranky all day. I wouldn't really care for romantic crap but I think it would be nice to stay in all day and watch horror movies and play video games. That would be my ideal date I guess. I'm not really high maintenance, hell, I'm not really low maintenance either!

I suppose what I mean is, I am a confused girl who just wants to be loved. Basically I can't magine someone saying that they love me, or kisses me when I look sad, or holds my hand in public, or sings with me or to me, or plays guitar and video games with... Ugh what am I saying?

I dunno, maybe that's just me. :(

Somalia

Words cannot describe the love I have for this country and its people. I truly believe that they are the most delicate and beautiful people I have ever seen. Their culture is interesting, rich and so diverse! That is exactly why I chose to emulate their culture and the cultures of Eritrea and Ethiopia in my school art project. I have the utmost respect for Somalia and I have a somewhat deep connection to this place. Whenever anything comes up to do with Somalia, my ears prick up and I am ready to defend it. I decided to compose a short poem-letter thingy to convey my emotions. I hope you like :) and if any Somalis visit my blog because of this then that's fantastic!

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Rise oh glorious nation!

Rise above the horrors and evil.

Shine oh glorious nation!

Shine and be like a beacon to all the world.

I pray to Allah that you heal

That you be healed of all the pain and suffering that has been cast upon you

I pray that he rids you of militants

That the bullet showers that light the skies at night

Will disappear in a flash of light

That he brings peace and stability to this nation

I pray that he caves this generation

That he guides you to salvation.

So please, soldiers, put down your weapons
And let us draw our hands together in prayer
Let us cease from spraying bullets
And concentrate on our children.
Let us build schools for them and not oppress them
Let us love them and never abuse them
Let us care for them and not mutilate them.

Spare our women from the blade and from the scourge of rape
Let us learn how to get along and love each other for who they are.

I celebrate your wisdom, your people and their love of Islam
I celebrate your culture and how you the country that you're from
I celebrate that you are a Nation of Poets
That your words themselves are bullets
That fight against all evil
That keep the youth sane
That let them express what's going on in their brain

So let the youth scream and shout and rejoice
Let the words and rhymes flow from their lips
I pray for peace and stability
I pray that one day all the lands that were under Somalia will all be unified
I pray that all Somalis will speak of their country with pride

So peace be upon you, Somalia and all your people
I pray that Somalis around the world enjoy a peaceful Ramadan.

:)
                                           

Triangles to Infinity

You and I.

Me and you.

We sold our souls to get into the mood. 

Rock music was our soul. Our passion. Our fire.

We ran circles around each other, flames bouncing at our feet.

Hearts pumping as we marched to the beat.

You played right into my hands, your soul was free. Innocent.

Your clean-shaven face lay close to mine.

As our bodies touched I couldn't help but smile.

The thought of letting you go was Hell to me

So I brought a gun do your head and let the bullets free.

You lay splayed across the bed

As a bullet shower rained on our bed

As I released my pressure on the trigger

As I lay watching you squirm.

Triangles to infinity was what we said

We aren't a part of them, it's all in your head!

We just like shapes, we're the normal kids; composed and cool.

We're the normal kids who smoke outside of school.

You inked it on your chest away from the world

They would just pry until your fingers unfurled

To reveal to the world your deepest darkest fears

That they would find you and make you disappear.

So here's to you, before I die.

For all those times you made me smile

Whenever you drew triangles on my head

Or when you traced infinity across my neck.

To all the times I abused you

To all the times I used you

So until we finally meet again

Take some lead to the head.

He Hates Me...

So...I won't sit and bitch about love like I always do. I won't vent and write song lyrics on my arm in red ink. I won't curl up in a ball on my bed and listen to a SoKo album. No I won't! You want to know why? Because I have a bone to pick with everyone!!

Firstly, I always tried my best to avoid my crush in the past year. We are in the same Biology class and today as I stood there looking lost, he walked in with his friends; eyes bright, smile spread wide across his face as he joked around with his friends. As soon as he lay eyes on me, his whole demeanor changed, his face dropped. He glared angrily at me and muttered loudly,

"Oh I forgot that Simone's in this class. I hate Simone with every part of me.."

Not going to lie, after I heard those words, my whole entire being became numb. That was when I knew that I was completely and irrevocably out of love with him! I spent the rest of the day feeling sorry for myself and my friends thought that I was in a bad mood again.

I hate being hated. I suppose it would work better if I never saw this person almost everyday. I suppose maybe I shouldn't let it bother me, but it does! Maybe I'm just being a stereotypical teenage girl and feeling extremely insecure about my feelings.

Maybe I should have confessed my feelings earlier...get it over and done with. Maybe just letting you know how I feel would make things less awkward. I wish I could have let loose all my inhibitions and let loose the real me.

You might have actually liked the real me... She's really awesome I guess. She loves to draw and shit like that. She loves to eat meat like you do. She loves riding scary roller-coasters and watching Paranormal Activity, and joking about how black people would have left the house as soon as they heard a plate drop!

I'm not really one of those cuddly-types, so you'd probably get bored of me quite quickly. Oh well....

Anyway, he hates. I just wanted to vent about that in a really crappy post that no one will ever read. Anyway, I guess I'm over him. He's just another stupid guy. Just. Another. Stupid. Guy....

YouTube Narnia: Revisited

OK, so I haven't really been updating my YouTube Narnia quest lately. Well as a sort of refresher, the rest of the week will be dedicated to revisiting the beauty of YouTube Narnia. This is the beginning of a new series OFFICIALLY called YouTube Narnia. Check these posts out regularly if you want to be exposed to great music once in a while. Stay musically enlightened everyone :)

1.  'Lost Kitten' - Metric, Synthetica

 

2. 'Dirty Dreams' - Work Drugs

3. 'Angels' - The xx, Coexist

4. 'On Melancholy Hill' - Gorillaz, Plastic Beach

5. 'Touch The Sky' - Kanye West vs. The xx (Carlos Serrano mix)

6. 'Young and Beautiful' - Lana Del Rey

7. 'By Your Side' - Beachwood Sparks, Scott Pilgrim vs. the world OST

8. 'Up All Night' - Best Coast, The Only Place

9. 'You Don't Own Me' - Masquer, Covers

10. 'Sweater Weather' - The Neighbourhood, I'm Sorry EP

11. 'T.I.A.' - K'naan, Troubadour

12. 'This Ladder Is Ours' - The Joy Formidable

13. 'Tomorrow Comes Today' - Gorillaz, Gorillaz

14. 'When The Sun Goes Down' - Arctic Monkeys, Whatever People Say I Am, That's What I'm Not

15. 'Leave Before the Lights Come On' - Arctic Monkeys

                                                       :) xx more to come

The Sims 4: TOO SOON!!

So I was scrolling through my Facebook News Feed yesterday when I see this:


And I'm all like:


And then I'm all like:



But then I start to think...'Is the world ready for another instalment in The Sims series?' Well, it was clear from most of the comments to that picture that many people weren't. Many people were still unwrapping their freshly bought Sims 3 University and were just about to order the Sims 3 Island Paradise when this little gem popped up. With the sloppy way EA handled the release of the SimCity reboot, it's no surprise that this announcement was met with mixed reactions.

Well, I can hardly say that I actually enjoyed my Sims 3 experience. The base game was riddled with bugs and glitches that just seemed to get worse with every expansion pack I bought. Despite this fact, I kept on buying them, except for Supernatural, which for religious reasons (mostly my mother), I did not purchase. I have never had any patience for 'Stuff packs'. I find them useless. Needless to say, my crappy computer struggled to deal with the influx of Sims stuff. I recently bought The Sims 3 University and failed to install it. I still can't figure out what's wrong. I may be computer illiterate but I have never come across an installation problem before, only performance, so personally I blame EA. The amount of bugs and the fact that they have yet to release two more expansion packs has left many 'Simmers' looking like:


While we scramble to pick up the remnants of the costly Sims 3 game, we have to wonder, 'Is it all worth it?'  I certainly hope EA doesn't stuff it up AGAIN. I was really looking forward to playing the new SimCity but I have since changed my mind. EA haven't released any details about the new game, except that it WON'T be an online experience which is good. *Phew!* As of writing, they are still tweaking the game's trailer and we are all waiting with baited breath. What are we looking out for? Well, all Simmers will be analyzing the trailer frame by frame. We will note down every graphic change, sound change, voice change, performance and game play change. I still firmly believe that The Sims 2 was the best installment of the series; game play-wise. The Sims 3 was released in June 2009 and it has now been 4 years...However, they are still popping out old Sims 3 expansion packs with a fresh new name and label stuck on top. I suppose we will just have to wait and see what The Sims 4 trailer holds...

All-in-all, if the new game looks like a seller, I may have to burn my Sims 3 copies...and my reaction will be like:

Followers -_-

Rawwrr! I'm a dinosaur.

OK, so I recently realised that I haven't been blogging as much as I should. Well, between studying and procrastinating I really haven't had much time to. Sorry :(

Today I wanted to address the most pressing problem we face on social-media today: FOLLOWERS.

Yes, I'm looking at YOU Twitter. You're busy sitting there with your tea and crumpets with a stupid grin on your face while you laugh at the mass of sweaty zombies you have created. Nowadays, it seems like everybody is desperate for attention. Everyone is desperate for 'followers', 'likes' and 'adds.' I quite frankly find this frustrating but I will be the first to say that I have said, 'Follow me and I'll follow back' on Twitter. Hasn't everybody? No? Oh well...

Basically, these people think that anything under the sun can be justified by the amount of drooling morons who like your page/picture/status. In my opinion, a person's attractiveness should not be judged on how many likes their picture gets. And in any case, these things are always judged on how popular you are. For example, if I -a plain Tswana girl without any hope of getting a boyfriend - posted a picture of myself without makeup and a pretty smile on my face, only my immediate circle of, less than 10 friends, will like the picture. The highest like for a picture of my myself would be around 15, and one for my artwork would be 30. However, an individual who is higher up on the social ladder will get 102. 102!!! 102 likes for an a picture which they edited the shit out of, covered in layers of make-up and practically an entirely different being! Or maybe it's just cos popular people are more attractive than me...hm....

But I digress...

Same thing goes for statuses, and that's what annoys the shit out me the most! The fact that a degenerate gets over a 100 likes for posting rap lyrics about anally raping every being withing a 20 km radius is simply unnerving. When the rest of us post meaningful junk on the Internet, they hardly give us the time of day. It's not our fault that we lack the confidence to strike a conversation with the popular kids. It's just...oh...leave me alone! *creeps into corner to continue anti-social behaviour and listen to The xx*

So...followers. They may help with self-confidence but I don't find it fair or necessary that they should be used as popularity markers. In other words: FOLLOW ME! ;)

 

My Top 10: Places to visit

Okay, so I have a list of cities that I have been dying to visit. These places may not be beautiful or worth visiting in the eyes of westerners and other people, but dammit they're good enough for me. In no way am I telling people to go out and visit them as some of these cities are in war-torn countries or countries under a strict regime. So please under no circumstances must you take my list too literally. It's just my own opinion so don't get offended.

10. Cape Town, South Africa

Ah, sun, sand and shells. What more could I ask for? Granted, I'm more of a home-body and prefer staying indoors in front of the computer but a little sunshine never hurt anyone. (Except vampires...*ahhh! It BURNS!*). I'd probably rent a place near the beach and walk across the sand every morning, while listening to Metric. Maybe I'd hire a scooter and just go around town taking in the sites, smells and cultures. The colourful houses in Bo-Kaap; the Castle of Good Hope; Robben Island; Kirstenbosch Botanical Gardens; Rhodes Memorial; South African Parliament; Two Oceans Aquarium; the Victoria and Alfred Waterfront; and the countless numbers of museums and performing arts theatres in the area. Let's not forget the ultimate go-see: Table Mountain. Of course Cape Town also has its fair share of crime and when going on vacation there, it's best to not appear too tourist-y. The only reason why it's not any higher up on the list is because it is always awash with holiday makers yearly. 

9. Zanzibar, Tanzania

My uncle and his wife and daughter went here last year. If I were to go there I would definitely visit the beach. After procrastinating in the water, I would take a kayak with a group of friends and procrastinate somewhere. Visit the Jozani Forest and stare at trees and pose with the Red Colobus monkeys. I'm a big fanatic of spices so I would definitely visit the Spice Island and try my hand at improving my roast chicken. Souvenirs from Stone Town plus the historical sites there's such as The House of Wonders and The Arab Fort are also on my list. Zanzibar is famous for having the world's shortest war; they surrendered to Britain after only 38 minutes of naval bombardment. If you're not too chicken the try local cuisine such as the Kidude. The Fahari Zanzibar is a great place to buy high quality accessories as well as providing income for the women working there. Since Zanzibar has a predominately Muslim community, certain measures must be taken to ensure respect such as; 

• Women and men should make an effort to cover their arms and legs
• It is regarded as disrespectful to show public attention
• Be discreet when drinking alcohol
• During Ramadan, the month of fasting, travellers should avoid eating and drinking publicly during the daytime. Also, don't smoke in front of people or chew gum and it is polite to avoid talking about the nice lunch you had.

8. Okavango Delta, Botswana 

What more can I say. It's in my home country and probably one of the most beautiful places in Africa.  The Delta is filled with a range of gorgeous wildlife and waterways. The Tsodilo Hills contain 4500 rock paintings. Boat rides on the river, safaris and wildlife rides :). Although being relatively safe, there are quite a few dangerous animals here but tourist attacks are very rare. Malaria can be present here so it is best to take extra precaution.

7. Cairo, Egypt

Despite the sometimes present violent protests, Cairo is still on my favourite locations. From the Pyramids of Giza and the Sphinx to Coptic Museum and the Al-Ahzar Mosque; there are definitely a lot of historical sites to take in. One can ride a felluca along the Nile River and are available across the Four Seasons Hotel in Garden City. Be warned, they play loud Arabic music so if you're not a fan it's best to keep your mouth. The Giza Zoo is one of the oldest in the world; about 100 years old! During your downtime you can visit the Cairo Botanical Gardens or take a tour of the Egyptian TV drama sets. I don't know about you guys, but I would definitely try out the local cuisine. Dishes such as fatir, falafel, shawarma and kushari. For health reasons, it is unsafe to drink tap water. Other than that I'd say that Egypt is a definite must-see. Keep in mind that it is a predominantly Muslim population so act appropriately. Greet people with "Es-Salāmu-`Alēku"  and behave and dress appropriately when visiting mosques and avoid extra PDA e.g. making out in public. A kiss on the cheek by men to other men is not seen as having sexual connotations but gay/lesbian displays are forbidden.

6. Paris, France

No explanation really needed here. I mean who doesn't want to visit France?! Unless maybe you were Frechphobic or Europhobic...My mummy went there last year for a business conference and I was super envious. She got me a bunch of art supplies so I was still pleased in the end though.With the Eiffel Towel, Arc de Triomphe, Chateau de Versailles, Notre Dame Cathedral you'll never have a dull moment. Of course, the trip could prove fruitful if you want to get on your French teacher's good side! The French people, as with any foreign language country will appreciate it greatly if you make a concentrated effort to learn their language. Stuff is expensive in France and beware con-artists and pickpockets in crowded areas or regular tourist attractions.

5. Hargeisa, Somaliland

 

Okay okay okay, i know what you're thinking; 'SOMALIA?! Of all places-are you insane?!' Well maybe I am. In recent months I have garnered interest in Somalia and Islam as a whole. It's not like I want to convert or anything, no, I am proudly Christian under the highly strict denomination of Roman Catholicism but that's for another day. Anyway, I really like Somalia. Don't ask me how or why but whenever I hear the word Somalia my heart skips a beat and I am instantly interested. It has a diverse history of trade relations and it's relationship with other countries in the Horn of Africa. I wish to one travel to Somalia once the situation clears up but the de facto Somaliland is actually much safer than Somalia itself. Somalia has beautiful beaches and generally friendly people. Locals will be impressed and pleased if you learn a few  words in Somali or Arabic, the two main languages.  As of today, Somaliland is still not noticed as an independent country despite having separated from Somalia after the fall of President Siad Barre in 1991. I honestly think that I will have a better chance of visiting Hargeisa, Somaliland sooner rather than visiting Somalia. Anyway...love this country and I hope the situation improves and those rebels get the f*** on!

4. Addis Ababa, Ethiopia

Beautiful place. Beautiful people. Africa. I  noticed that most of my top 10 are in Africa, so perhaps I'm being a bit biased but dammit there's so much of my continent to explore so screw you! Anyway, Ethiopia is one of the oldest countries in the world and one of the few African countries to not be colonized  It is believed to be the beginning of mankind and the second-oldest Christian nation, after Armenia. I suppose one should visit the Ethiopian National Museum and the countless historic churches such as St. George's Cathedral. Definitely try some of the local cuisine and food is relatively cheap. Addis Ababa is quite safe, save for a few pickpockets and con artists who target tourists and gang violence is rare. Ethiopians are very beautiful so I suppose one can be forgiven for staring a bit. The same can be applied to other Horn Africans but I am in no means discriminating I'm just saying that people from this region are quite attractive. No hate, One love :) 

3. Havana, Cuba

Cuba. The sights, smells and the people. Seriously, my mum works with a Cuban woman and she is very theatrical and expressive and always yelling something in Spanish. There are so many beautiful places to visit such as the Plaza de Armas, the sea the Tropicana Show.Cuba has got a great music scene and one can come across restaurants with a band playing there. It's quite safe for a large city but prison sentences for tourists are quite harsh and there is a present prostitution scene. Don't forget to try Cuba's world famous cigars and it's diverse array of food. The more pricey restaurants may burn a hole in your wallet but they have a great atmosphere. Cubans are friendly and helpful people.

2. Rio de Janeiro, Brazil

I think that I mostly want to visit Rio for the carnival, and the beaches...and of course the amazing 'Christ The Redeemer' statue and Sugar Loaf Mountain. Unfortunately, recently Rio has only become known due to its slums, drug lords and violent crime. There are no nude beaches in Rio, so calm yourselves! Remember, it's rude to stare ;) 

1. Tokyo, Japan

Well no big shocker here. I have been in love with Japan and Japanese culture since I can remember. I missed out a great opportunity to go to Japan on exchange this term and I still kick myself every time I see Facebook pictures of my schoolmates who went there. Anyway, I suppose that I would definitely take a tour of the Meiji Shrine, Asakusa temple the Roppongi Hills. Mt. Fuji, touring a traditional tea garden, shopping Ginza and hanging out in Akihabara with all my fellow otakus. I would attend a cosplay event and visit Harajuku and of course, eat sushi for breakfast despite the fact that I hate fish. One should visit the amusement parks, take a boat ride on the Sumida River, take a stroll in the Imperial Palace's East Garden and have a picnic in the park during the cherry blossom (Sakura).

State of the World Part 2

I open my eyes.

My body is broken; bones shattered, heart crushed, soul drained. I am lifeless.

What kind of world do we live in? A world where we burn our children. We feed them propaganda and hand them guns. We send them to war as decoys while we infiltrate our enemies' base. We sell our children. Sell them to evil men who touch them. Sell them to rapists and killers, drug dealers are traffickers, abusers and addicts.

What kind of world is that?

We ravage our land. We deplete her of her resources and bore into her skin with our pitch forks and drills. We empty her oceans, lakes and rivers; reducing them to puddles. Her body is soon a lifeless vessel; damaged and devoid of all life. We have ripped her apart, like the hungry baby grabbing at his mother's breasts. We tear apart the flesh, leaving her landscape barren. We leave her looking unattractive. We rub salt into the wounds and have the audacity to pollute her with our evil refuse. The seeds of our humanity litter her and soon become populous nations that abuse her even more. She ends up scarred and scared; no longer sacred.

I walk across the broken glass on the ground. My feet bleed. Tears prick at my skin; cold and uninviting. I stare down at the destruction in my path. Devastation and heartache; odors pungent within the air.

What have we done? We have destroyed our futures right before our eyes. We cannot escape the path of destruction that we have laid in front of ourselves. Ignorance and greed fill our hearts. Ignorance and greed fill the minds of our leaders; the people we trust. We lead each other to wars.

Our actions. They lead  to our own demise.

We live in a world where we kill due to our beliefs. We believe that our gods have written it as thus. We believe that it is just for us to slay all Muslims, Christians, Jews etc; simply because we believe in different things.

I don't understand. Don't we all essentially believe in one God? If not then surely we all believe that we were all created by a higher being? Or maybe that's just me....

Can't we all live in peace and harmony? Perhaps that is just an idealistic dream that I have garnered. Living in a world where we do not trust our own family; fearing they might want us dead for all our riches. A world where one nation's people are more significant than another's. A world where senseless bombings kill innocents. And for what I ask you?! A few precious seconds of airtime on the news and conspiracy theories rampant on the internet. You sit in front of your television and take pleasure in watching millions suffer.

...

NO. This HAS to stop. I suppose I'm preaching to those who do not wish to be saved. Oh well, we are our own worst enemy after all. :P

I hold my breath and take a step forward.