So...I won't sit and bitch about love like I always do. I won't vent and write song lyrics on my arm in red ink. I won't curl up in a ball on my bed and listen to a SoKo album. No I won't! You want to know why? Because I have a bone to pick with everyone!!
Firstly, I always tried my best to avoid my crush in the past year. We are in the same Biology class and today as I stood there looking lost, he walked in with his friends; eyes bright, smile spread wide across his face as he joked around with his friends. As soon as he lay eyes on me, his whole demeanor changed, his face dropped. He glared angrily at me and muttered loudly,
"Oh I forgot that Simone's in this class. I hate Simone with every part of me.."
Not going to lie, after I heard those words, my whole entire being became numb. That was when I knew that I was completely and irrevocably out of love with him! I spent the rest of the day feeling sorry for myself and my friends thought that I was in a bad mood again.
I hate being hated. I suppose it would work better if I never saw this person almost everyday. I suppose maybe I shouldn't let it bother me, but it does! Maybe I'm just being a stereotypical teenage girl and feeling extremely insecure about my feelings.
Maybe I should have confessed my feelings earlier...get it over and done with. Maybe just letting you know how I feel would make things less awkward. I wish I could have let loose all my inhibitions and let loose the real me.
You might have actually liked the real me... She's really awesome I guess. She loves to draw and shit like that. She loves to eat meat like you do. She loves riding scary roller-coasters and watching Paranormal Activity, and joking about how black people would have left the house as soon as they heard a plate drop!
I'm not really one of those cuddly-types, so you'd probably get bored of me quite quickly. Oh well....
Anyway, he hates. I just wanted to vent about that in a really crappy post that no one will ever read. Anyway, I guess I'm over him. He's just another stupid guy. Just. Another. Stupid. Guy....
